WHY I DO WHAT I DO, PART 1
So, I’m sitting here thinking about me and life and my life. And what I say to people and what I don’t say. I don’t talk a lot because, honestly, it seems like it always comes back to bite me and haunt me. Like for instance, which is probably the thing that has taught me to shut my mouth, when I tell people that I like somebody, they (people) ALWAYS equate anything they do or I say to that guy. "I just saw so and so.""Oh, you listenin to your boo? Have you told him yet?"
First off, when I say "boo", I say it very loosely. I call my guy friends, my brothers and my friends boo. I say "boo boo" all the time. So what makes you think when I say boo this time about this guy that it means something deeper? When I get a man, I won’t refer to him as my "boo" because that word really has not deep meaning to me.
So, I can t even mention dudes names who I have admit to finding attractive (notice: not guys I have a crush on, but guys I think are attractive) without it being something much more that what it really is. Why can’t I just blast dude's mixtape, or go on dude's twitter or fb page?
I already told myself that when I get serious about a guy and we start talkin (or not), I won’t say anything to my friends until I see where things are going. People take things way to seriously. And the second I do what they (my friends) do to me, I’m "mean". No! person of color (or not) (you like how I didn’t say nigga?? lol yeah I know other words, but I digress...) I’m not mean, but you don’t like what I’m doing to you huh?
So why I do what I do: to stay sane. To keep people out of my business. To keep the focus off of me. I don’t like going off on people. It’s really not me. It’s not my character. I come from a long line of short, God-fearing, somewhat mostly calm people. We don’t blow up on people. We keep it cool. We’re like the AC (lol).
So, yeah, I just thought about that and felt passionate enough about it to write so…..yeah. Thanx for reading!!! =)
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