30 Days of Kia ♥

Day 18


forgot to blog yesterday, so today i will do two blogs...

heres the first:

i think God talks to me in different ways. well, actually, i dont think, i know. its real subtle and soft, which used to scare me because when ifirst got saved, i would actually hear a voice clear as day, so when God started speaking in a different way and thru other people and in my convictions, i used to think it wasnt God.
i just ended a fast and felt like i didnt learn anything until the last day. the fast before that, i didnt hear anything until a day or two after. that latter had scared me because i thought my fast must have been in vain. glad i was proven otherwise :)
ive been doing research on fasting so that i can have a clear understanding of it and how to do it. i dont wat to fast just because my church is or my group is or anything like that but i actually want to have a broken and contrite heart that seeks God's face in the process. thats what fasting is about anyway, not to be seen by man but to be seen by God.

30 Days of Kia ♥



Day 1


So I decided to start back on the 30 Days of Kia ♥ again....so I’m gonna start over

So, when you fast, it’s supposed to be for a purpose. I don’t understand why people call breakfast, breakfast. When you are sleep, you’re not fasting, your sleep! You kind of don’t really have a choice to eat or not. You’re not praying. You’re not reading. You’re not seeking God. sooooo technically you’re not fasting! ANYWAY!

I fasted as a part of my bible study (aka group) (it really is like therapy! I love it!) But I fasted and I was kind of scared because I was praying and everything but wasn’t hearing God the way I wanted to hear him..Humph isn’t that funny, hear God the way I want to hear Him. That’s funny. Anyway, I just asked God to speak to me and to forgive me for some things I was doing and to shed light on some situations. And wouldn’t you know, He spoke to me!!(Not the way He did when I first got saved (I actually heard a voice) but He still spoke and I loved it!)). So He spoke to me today, which is the day after I ended my fast, in two incredible ways.


So, family, I was once ashamed to admit this, but now I am not, because I realize I am human, with weak flesh that can be tempted and fall into traps (but though I fall, I have been given grace mercy and love to get back up and ask for forgiveness). So lately, for a brief moment, and when I say brief, I mean a week or so, I had become a fan of Wiz Khalifa’s Black and Yellow. I think I became a fan of the song and beat because of the Super Bowl and my boys the Steelers (yes I know they lost, but they still some beasts! Anyways!) . So I felt that I shouldn’t like the song and hear it continuously and sometimes I am hard headed. Anyway long story short, today was the last day I would ever sing a lyric of the song, much less watch the video. I wasn’t even really watching the video, but when my eyes were on the screen for a few seconds, on one of the dude’s shirts was a picture of Baphomet, which historically has become a symbol for Satan (not stating opinion, stating fact). FREAKED ME OUT SON!!! I was like WHAT?!?!?!? I rewound the video and there it was again. IMMEDIATELY turned it off!!! IDHT (I Don’t Have Time).

…sad to say, I forgot the other thing I was going to blog lol it’s not funny. So when think of it, I will write it down, then blog it another day.